Matt "TL;DR GINGER" Murdock (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
notdaredevil) wrote2014-02-11 07:38 pm
notdaredevil) wrote2014-02-11 07:38 pm
IC INBOX (MASKORMENACE)
"You've reached Matt Murdock, Attorney at Law. I'm not available right now, but if you leave a message, I'll get back to you at the earliest possible moment I can. And please, no texts."
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[In contrast to his outrage, Matt's tone couldn't possibly be more icy. Derisive, intending to plant the knife and twist it. Whatever Peter thinks, Matt knows him well. He's seen Spidey snap before, and of the two of them, he's by far the better planner. And he has tricks he's never used before around his friend, and certainly never contemplating using on his friend.
Besides, if he thinks Matt isn't canny enough to bring back-up, if necessary, he's definitely not thinking carefully.]
And I'll commend you on a frankly impressive attempt at blending self-loathing with a massive ego trip, but I won't be responsible for having to go to your Aunt May, or Mary Jane, to explain you thought your life wasn't worth saving. That I or anyone else agreed to throw it away. It's not happening.
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Don't. Don't use them like that, don't you dare --
[ Because they're at the center of all this, aren't they. The two people he loves most are far beyond his reach, and for three years he consoled himself that as far as they're concerned he's never left; however much he misses them, they're safe, protected.
Then a universe died, and all it did was reset the clock. He's gotten used to being an explainer, to identifying as an imPort the same way he does being a New Yorker or a man or a superhero. To looking after kids when he'd felt barely more than a child himself. How much longer can he stay here, and how much more can he change before going home and resetting isn't a return to normal, but a kind of death?
With all that percolating in the back of his mind, Matt's news was the last bit of comfort stripped away. A complete betrayal, not by his friend but apparently by himself. He's completely unmoored; he can't trust in anything, any more.]
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[Matt doesn't understand, because Matt doesn't remember. But if anybody's an expert in the sort of rampant self-destruction and ruin that inflicts untold casualties, it's Matt Murdock. And at his most self-pitying, at his lowest point...maybe he would have wanted that, too. Maybe it's the understanding that makes him so vehemently opposed now, when it's somebody else's life on the line. He wouldn't wish that feeling on anybody. And he refuses to allow Peter to go through it, if he can help it.]
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Which self am I supposed to pull together? The one here that's going to cease to exist when I go home, whenever that is, or the one that apparently just killed someone?
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